me: anhong, i luv u but pls do not put me as music man.

ah: never put u la.

me: cool. thats why i say you are so handsome.

ah: fu*k u. i put u throw rubbish.

me: wa! good! low stress job. i like.

;p

now i got to call another person kor, kinda not used to it yet.

exams next week. ought to do well, better do well!

the power.

sis wedding is finally over.. now i can conentrate on my exams...

pics upload it when my sis send it to me.. ;)

mum wanna go holiday in dec~ :)) hope we can finally go~

tmr is finally sis wedding~!

hm... tea ceremony... dinner... wa.

cinta pada mu, yes.

i better go sleep early... must look good. ;p

我伪装着
不露痕迹的想在你身边
静静的陪着看着天边
骑着单车往前行进着
某个路口爱在等着
你往前走
不回头看了记忆的笑脸
缓缓的敲着我的琴键
我不舍得让你孤单单的
我爱你的心牵挂着
心不再拚命躲不去害怕结果
假设有个以后你会怎么说
一直想跟你说幸福不再溜走
下个路口你会看见爱
有美丽笑容
爱转角遇见了谁是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁是否不让你流泪
也许陌生到了解让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪不让你掉眼泪
现在永远
你就是我就是我的美

为什麽你轻易俘虏我的心
我却难以将你的目光拉近
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永远? 永远离我好远.
慢慢觉得没有永远.
永远是谎言.

过去几年的恐惧还在缠着我...
还是不肯放开手.
爱让我崩溃
让我发现我的憔悴

恐怕有一天还是无奈放开双手...
辛福会不会这样溜走?

gembira. =)

they say ai qing xu yao jing guo kao yan.
i know my hanyu pinyin is correct.

it wasnt that easy to come so far.

all over again. forgive but i really cant forget.

however silly it may be.

before, i may need time.

exclusivity.

i hope i made the right decision..

i cant describe my emotions right now.. too perplexed. but i do know the heart still hurts. pain. lots of them.

why did i always deserve all these?

is there no one who truly knows how to cherish me?

can't sleep.

faithful.

i'm still hurt.

breached of trust, totally disappointed.

a broken vase will never look the same again.

for a perfectionist like me, something i cant accept.

yesterday i heard sweet-nothings. today it was someone else who heard the sweet-nothings...
y is the world so complicated?

i want to live in a beautiful and happy world...

i think everybody wants to live in a happy and beautiful world.

suddenly, i feel like moving out and living on myself... i think sooner or later i'll do that. There's a calling since some time ago.


one day, a beautiful world will be created.



let me share with u a story of a familiar monster...

A familiar monster.

there is this small boy, he was living with this monster all the while since he was very very young...And they were living in a broken hut in a deserted jungle. But they were happy. And this monster took great care of him when he was young... showered him with sincere care and love, cos he was still so cute and lovely when he was just a small baby toddler...

years later, both the monster and boy grew older... this boy had wanted to take care of the monster once he had the ability and opportunity to, but the monster started becoming very demanding of the boy... he wanted the boy to go climb the trees and get him his favourite mangoes, bananas and coconuts and hunt for him the wildest of boars as his cravings for meat became stronger... although the small boy would very much wanted to get him his favourite foods, it was still beyond his ability to do so... he tried a couple of times and he and he kept falling from the trees. and when he failed to get those favourite foods, the monster got really angry and crossed and threatened to gobble him up. He was raging with wrath.. and this small boy was very hurt... someone whom he had all along loved became so obnoxious and beastly..

and the boy was thrown into a turmoil. suddenly, he just feels like he's now all alone in this world...

a familiar monster...

i've accomplished 3 challenges today, in fact 4! ;)

i'm having too many tasks on hand, too many.

you know what, the sad thing is being who i am, i cant say "look, im tired, enough."

posts stop coming in... while mental turmoil starts coming in.

consumer behaviour projects. i wished i had more competent groupmates. (saying this, i realized i've stepped into the footsteps of daryl 2 years back, complaining about teammates. but yes, i really wish for more competent teammates to reduce my burden for such a big project)

tmr im going to nus to pitch to the female soccer team about unifem... hm.. what am i doing to say.

skit.
international econs report.
trainings.
exams, meaning tonnes of thoeries.

finally i know what im most disturbed by; i've yet to perform better for my health. noticed i said yet. meaning im going to do something. ive heard repeated comments saying i've lost weight. yes i've lost weight.


few months back i was thinking to myself, when will it be the day when i start putting in negative stuffs into my blog, naturally it took few months from then to finally starts kicking in.

laws of attraction works. and the irony of knowing too much, and being too aware.

lol... am i getting too much of a gig for u guys, that soon, nobody starts understanding what im talking...


at the end of the day, i see it a challenge, and i never fail once. cos i'm kelvin.