Now i'm back again! hm... it really made me felt really loved and cherish...

my bunch of kids simply loves me!

and now i can finally get back to my girl's side~! woot~!

I'm proud becos i knew they felt empowered and they felt good after everything. And i guess that is the reason that kept me going despite stumbling and questioning at times along the way...

politics. one cant avoid. but i shall stay firm.

tricia asked me "if a person is easy going, is he or she then makes a sheep?"

the issue here is not about whether the person is easy going or not, but whether the person choose to stay firm in his beliefs.

Hazirah is sweet... so is kanch, julian, vannesa and co.

loved and love.

and so, now is time to give her more of my love! ;)

if one day... i might lose sight of myself...

okie i must write it down before i lose the emotions.

i think singaporeans severely lack empathy and gracefulness towards the treatment of the elderly in our society.

today, i accidentally and unknowingly cut the queue of this elderly frail uncle...

he was last in a short queue of four, but the queue was blocking the passage way...
so i walked to the other side to place my order so as to not further block the passage way...

but what i didnt know was he hasnt placed his orders when i placed mine. at least not
until when this frail looking uncle finally got a chance to near the stall attendent and placed his order.

oh shux.
kind of felt guilty and bad that i actually cut this elderly uncle's queue.

i was observing him as he was taking out his money and didnt look a single bit annoyed, and the innocuous look on his face made me felt really worst.


What happened moments later totally disgust me...

the working crowd flocked in.
One by one, all in business suits started walking in and this guy in shirt and pants just bulldozered his way in to the front of the stall and took the spoons and chopsticks as if he should and would be the next to be attended! and the rest followed suit, relegating the poor elderly uncle way behind once again..

koaz! pls! show some gracefulness!(okie u and i know i dun sound graceful here, but thats for a reason.)

kn*, damn angry. Singapore a high class society? pui.
So much for putting on a shirt and tie. so this is the type of individuals our nation is capable of producing?

the real class beneath that very branded shirt and pants is gone, or perhaps, it has never even been existing in Singaporeans in the first place.

Superficiality is what we are famous for going for anyway.


my food came and i walked off in disgust...
reached my table and realized in my moments of disgruntlement, i actually forgotten about my spoon.

Went back to take...

and those in the business suits and leather shoes were walking away apathetically with their food...

the poor uncle?

he is still waiting in a corner for his food.

now, it made me really mad becos had i not accidentally cut his queue earlier on, he would have long been sitting down with his simple meal.


tmd !@#$%^&ABC*XYZ

com'on, lets show some graciousness.

this is not only apparent in food centres, but almost everywhere around us in our daily occurences.

now, let us stop giving excuses that we are in a high pace society, lack of time, as such lack of observation of what's around us. They are merely excuses to conceal the real reason...


which is what that is beneath us.


oh ya, and lets not forget we will all turn frail and fragile one day... so what are we going to teach our next generation?

indeed, the hardest part is knowing what you want.

what is it that i want?

Being on the final exam!

com'on i cant wait it any further!